hoho!! dream girl!

this is fucking humiliating. others can, you cant, cuz u are family. why are you doing this to me?

never test the patience of a patient man.

yeah keep trying what u did. and good luck! 

that aside, went zouk last night with XL, Zeng, JD, Zc. had quite a lot of fun. 

its either i am the guess number (cai quan) king, or XL really sucks. LOL

saw nicole and audrey. looking good yeah!

saw jena, christine, joann and gang. they too look great! except for i think they were too high on alcohol.

went off early cuz its boring.

woke up early in the morning for training. 

oh yah. i still go back to trainings. but i dont consider myself as in the team cuz i am only helping out. so am i or am i not in the team? both larh.

pictures to be updated soon!

you want this you want that.. tell u what la. go fuck off la.

somehow i am going through some transitional period of my life, though i may not show it, but dont test my patience please.

oh yah.  when i told u i dont like it or i dont want it, please hor, im not kidding. what u get is disappointment only. 

fuck!

if i can please everyone, im god.

and if im god, everyone dies. 

FUCKING dont understand whats going on actually. yeah. turned out to be im the bad guy. so FUCK off if you dont want to get involve with the bad guy.

FUCK

well. apparently friends are not so "friend" after all. what can i say is that things meant to be unsaid should be unsaid. sorry for the inconvenience cause by my recklessness. which i guess i am suffering from retribution like keep falling sick. 

A promise made to myself : FUCKING NEVER TO OPEN UP TO ANYONE ANYMORE. 

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

on the other hand. i got hired to be some part time "security guard" pay 1hr/$8. but overnight. i feel so degrading doing these jobs. 

still

FUCK.

okay finally finish my 4 days of hell in comex.

i learnt something. 

never to entertain people who aint interested in your products in the first place.

never to show the aces in the first shot.

read peoples' mind.

even though you are not happy, just keep smiling.

i am a good sales person.

well, its not the first IT show ive done, but this show is quite fruitful. i can to know many friends from the show. one is a bastard. i was actually quite flattered when one of my customer offered me a job to be a full time salesman under him. 

oh ya i am the TOP SALESMAN