well. apparently friends are not so "friend" after all. what can i say is that things meant to be unsaid should be unsaid. sorry for the inconvenience cause by my recklessness. which i guess i am suffering from retribution like keep falling sick. 

A promise made to myself : FUCKING NEVER TO OPEN UP TO ANYONE ANYMORE. 

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

on the other hand. i got hired to be some part time "security guard" pay 1hr/$8. but overnight. i feel so degrading doing these jobs. 

still

FUCK.